tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30676872011-04-21T15:03:14.432-05:00Ravings of a LunaticRandom thoughts and ponderings from a highly functioning bipolarRisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.comBlogger121100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3067687.post-1086874871543361732004-06-10T08:31:00.000-05:002004-06-10T08:41:11.543-05:00Hello, again, anonymous world...hope someone is listening to these meandering thoughts...
Well, I finally graduated law school, and did actually secure a job with a firm that knows I'm crazy, so which one is more crazy: me or them?
I am still waiting to hear on the final approval on my application to take the bar. Yes, you have to go through 2 applications here: one as a law student, and Risinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3067687.post-872453012003-01-10T20:00:00.000-06:002003-01-10T20:00:59.300-06:00Back again for more babbling...
More good news, folks...the bar approved my character and fitness examination. They looked into my background for SIX MONTHS versus the six weeks it took most students to get an approval letter. They really did get all of my medical and therapy records. The most ironic thing is that they fully investigated my discrimination complaint against my former employer.Risinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3067687.post-807904342002-08-27T15:19:00.000-05:002002-08-27T15:19:16.213-05:00Thanks for the patience and checking back to my return visitors; to those who are new, welcome to the Rabbit Hole!!!
Well, what a life-changing 2 months it has been, folks! First, the really encouraging news -- I was released from therapy. Now, don't misread that -- I will always be medicated -- but I no longer have to pay for the privilege of spilling my guts to someone who is paid to care. Risinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3067687.post-751372452002-04-07T14:58:00.000-05:002002-04-07T14:58:29.740-05:00Hey, folks, those of you who have been here before expect an apology for the time between posts ... consider me apologetic...
I want to thank those of you who have taken the time to sign my guestbook; it's nice to know that these little rants have been useful to someone other than me and I hope that you find a little encouragement here. Just know you are not alone in this battle...
I did Risinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3067687.post-54608602001-09-03T16:14:00.000-05:002001-09-03T16:14:59.036-05:00Sorry it's been so long since I have written; really have to work on that...
First off, I want to say thanks to the people who take the time to check out the meanderings of my mind; it's nice to know that some people are curious about the babblings of my restless mind!
Well, school has started and I am still fighting the system. The health insurance through the university won't cover my Risinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3067687.post-47068332001-07-24T13:20:00.000-05:002001-07-24T13:20:40.403-05:00Okay, so I will never be someone to write everyday. Sorry.
I was turned down for Medicaid, which really sucks. Their reason? "Treatment for bipolar is voluntary, not medically necessary." I tried to explain to the woman that this was ridiculous. Voluntary? What are my options? Um, die or end up in an institution. Gee, those both sound much more pleasant than taking these pills every day.Risinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3067687.post-46025842001-07-18T12:06:00.000-05:002001-07-18T12:06:52.903-05:00I have decided to participate in a clinical study. It's not that it will help pay for my meds or therapy, but I feel that I should be willing to open my life up if it will help doctors better understand bipolars and what we go through. Damn if this soapbox doesn't keep getting taller every time I climb up!
Maybe a lot of my willingness to be public with my disease is because I was so alone in Risinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3067687.post-44517632001-07-09T11:25:00.000-05:002001-07-09T11:25:12.433-05:00One of the joys of being on lithium is having my blood drawn every month. It's really strange -- when I was a kid, I could have my blood drawn and not even flinch, but now, I really hate it. It's not that I'm scared of needles or anything; I just really don't like it. Maybe part of it is due to my Native heritage/beliefs. Blood is the essence of life and therefore allowing someone to take my Risinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3067687.post-44111922001-07-06T13:13:00.000-05:002001-07-06T13:13:43.423-05:00Geez, I am not very good at writing every day, am I? I guess that is partly because I don't want to write just to write -- I want to write when I have something to say. Otherwise, it becomes too much like the small talk with your friends where your eyes start to glaze over and you mentally compile your grocery list while occasionally saying "mm-hmm".
Today, my thoughts keep turning to the ideaRisinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3067687.post-43618962001-07-03T13:17:00.000-05:002001-07-03T13:17:14.226-05:00Okay, I guess I should explain part of the reason my meds had to be changed again. I had a psychotic break. Now, before you go thinking it's like in the movies where someone puts aluminum foil on their heads to keep the government from intercepting their brainwaves or opens fire at a busy intersection, I will explain some of the psychotic features in manic depression.
Auditory hallucinations.Risinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3067687.post-43454012001-07-02T13:38:00.000-05:002001-07-02T13:38:20.923-05:00Sorry it's been a few days since I logged in. I have been rather busy exploring my options regarding prescription costs. Very frustrating to say the least. I have found that some of the drug companies offer discount prescriptions, which is encouraging. Now I have to make tons of phone calls to get the applications and to get my doc to send in the requisite forms.
Time for another raving -- Risinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3067687.post-42901052001-06-28T16:28:00.000-05:002001-06-28T16:28:52.633-05:00Well, time to start yet another era in my battle of the bipolar. Seems the stupid lithium levels need to be changed. Great. I just love adapting to all the side effects of a new medication, not to mention the craziness that occurs during the transition. Even better, this new medication is going to cost me $162 a month. Thanks once again to my dickhead former boss for canceling my insurance Risinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10845244326996940374noreply@blogger.com0